It has been well over a year since you’ve left me. Don’t worry, life is still moving on without you, even though I have attempted to claw my fingers into the ground just to freeze time. No one lets me. I still have to go to work, see people, smile.
I have made it through a round of special days without you. Holding back tears and gulping them away just before the days start. Laughing like my heart isn’t in a million pieces.
I talk to you when I am alone sometimes. I don’t know if you can hear me, but it is nice to pretend you are there. Even for a few minutes.
I don’t know what else to say that I don’t already say every day. I feel abandoned. I feel robbed. I feel lost.
Goodnight, Daddy Eugene.