To think that I can keep you out of mine

I’ve been staring at this blank page for a while. No one would’ve known. Much like how no one ever knows how much you affected me. Or how much you still do.

I’ve tried.

I’ve tried to hold in all the pain, all the pleasure; all the misery that is both happy and hateful. I want to touch you, to hear you sing to me, to yell playful obscenities when I need a good kick in the ass.

I’ve gone wild. Really wild. Tearing through everything just to obtain temporary satisfaction.

It’s been almost ten years. Three since I’ve last spoken to you. Even then, we couldn’t contain ourselves. Everything was still there, lying under the debris of the hurricane that took us both. Moving on never really happened. It won’t. What is this? Why is this?

All of the right ones have just been ghosts of you.

You’re out of your mind.

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Erika Damn Castle!

I've always been told that I'm an adventurous girl and I cannot deny any of it. I would love to see the world and experience all of the stories it has to tell me. I am a child of the arts, developing my senses in music, painting, sketching, crafting, et cetera. But writing... it was a talent I believe I was born with. I'm not saying I'm an amazing (grammatically correct) author, just that I'm a natural storyteller. I can remember from the time that I learned how to read and write, I was eager to create my own world. I would scribble out tons of poems and short stories, then forcibly share them with my family (or even with my classmates). One of those stories resulted in the creation of this blog. Black Tears. As a child with an already wild imagination, I would always have these equally crazy dreams. One of those dreams was so vivid, that I awoke in the middle of the night and jotted down everything I could remember. From that point, the dream evolved into a poem, then a short story, and then to a complete story. It is the fruit of my 20 year procrastinating labor, and has been published into a book (the first of its series). Tune in to stay updated on the growth of myself as an author and the series. I hope you enjoy it as much as I have loved creating it! XX , Erika

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